So. I’m here. I’m alive. And I am… dare I say it?… happy.
Observation – this far into my contract at TUKS, I was miserable, I hated my job and myself.
Even when I had adjusted to the work, I knew I wouldn’t be staying. I looked for other jobs, I day dreamed about other jobs, and making more money.
But I stayed. I learnt. I grew up.
This job is already more work than TUKS was, and more is coming. I know it’s early days yet, and I know that things that don’t bug me yet will get to me in time, but I already know that whatever happens, this is already better than last year. And if I could get through lecturing EOT, I can do this.
What’s the difference here? I’m not sure yet. Maybe it’s that I have experience I didn’t have back then. Maybe it’s that my students are better than the child-ren doing EOT. Maybe it’s that EPIK (or the office of education, or the school, or whatever) – unlike the university – sees fit to pay us a living wage. Maybe it’s that…
I don’t know. There are too many things that influence my thoughts on the matter.
But – unlike this time last year – I certainly don’t see myself anywhere else for the conceivable future.
In short, I feel a bit like singing I think I’m gonna like it here.